accepting things I cannot change

Yesterday was a pretty bad day.  Without going into any sort of detail, it was bad, like really bad.  It was so bad that not even homemade mac & cheese, the Bachelorette, a wonderful Hubby, and kitty snuggles could make it better.

I failed.  I fell flat.  I came up short.

How did I fail?  I had set a goal for myself.  It was a pretty big goal.  Yesterday I found out that my goal, which I thought I was inches away from achieving, was still miles away.  I was crushed, to say the least.  So, I decided that I'd let myself have a day.  One day to wallow in my self pity; one day to cry endlessly over my upset.  I needed that day.


roller coaster

Lately, I've been going trough the most insane roller-coaster ride of life. Up and downs of happiness, twist and turns of emotions, and the feeling of butterflies in my stomach.

Everything in my life has always seemed to fall into place. School, jobs, love - everything has come pretty effortlessly. I knew in high school where I wanted to go with my life; what I wanted to be when I "grew up". Jobs have always come easily for me, I've never had an interview for a job that I didn't get. With Hubby, from the moment we first stated dating, I stopped looking for other guys, I knew he was (and is) The One. Here I am in my mid-twenties and I feel like I've accomplished most of the goals that I had set for myself when I was a teenager. Where do I go from here?



Today, I'm celebrating.

Today is my last day of University.

Today, I accomplish a goal that I've had since high school.

No more case briefs, no more statutes, no more heavy text books.  Most of all, no more crippling stress over projects and term papers. 


wonderful wedding moment number five

The Friends.

Our wedding wouldn't have been the day that it was without them.  From all the love and support that the gave us throughout the planning, to all the joy that they shared with us on the big day, our friends were a huge part our our wedding day.



Last night, after the Canucks lost, my facebook status was "I'm heartbroken".

Little did I know that I wasn't even close to being heartbroken in that moment.  For me, the real heartbreak came when I watched our city get trashed, looted, and burned.

I'm so deeply saddened by these events that I can't find the words to describe how I'm feeling.

Upset.  Heartbroken.  Devastated.

These words just don't seem to fully convey how utterly hurt I am.


potato pancakes

I'm stressed. Like, beyond stressed. I have so much on my plate right now that I don't know how to handle it. Normally, I thrive when put in stressful situations, but lately, I feel like I'm crumbling.

Work is crazy, school deadlines are freaking me out, and tonight it's do or die for the Canucks to win the Stanley Cup.

When I got home from work yesterday, I just needed to feel better. I needed comfort. So, I made comfort food. Bland-ish German comfort food. Potato Pancakes (also known as latkes). I don't know why, but for me, potato pancakes are basically my food security blanket. They are quick and easy to make and completely unhealthy when served with bacon and sour cream instead of vegetables. Which I did. And it was delicious.


sunday movie: "Midnight in Paris"

Hubby and I, along with a bunch of our closest friends, decided to get together to cheer on our Canucks in Game 2 of the Stanley Cup Finals this past Saturday.  Well, unless you've been living under a rock, you'll know that our boys made us proud and and won the game 3 - 2 (11 seconds into overtime, no less).

So, what do you get on a sunny Saturday combined with a victorious hockey team, an electric city, and good friends?  Beer.  Lots and lots (and lots) of beer.  And Montreal smoked meat sandwiches, but that's a different story, for a different day.


keen on quinoa

Do you ever eat quinoa?  Do you know what quiona is?  If not, let wikipedia me enlighten you:

Quinoa (keen-wah) is a grain-like crop grown primarily for its edible seeds.  It is a "pseudocereal" rather than a true cereal, or grain, as it is not a member of the grass family.  Quinoa is closely related to species such as beets, spinach, and tumbleweeds.  It's light with a fluffy texture when cooked, and its mild, slightly nutty flavor makes it a delicious choice.  Also, quinoa is super good for you.  It's a super food, yo.  Eat it, enjoy it.