As I was watching the other day, Ms. O said something that really struck a chord with me. I'm not quoting her exactly here, but it was something along the lines of "If somebody doesn't want me, than I stop wasting my time with them". Now, I'm pretty sure that she said it MUCH more eloquently, but that's the gist of it.
In my continued efforts to search within myself, I've discovered that I have a really, really hard time with letting go of friendships that just don't seem to work anymore. You know what I'm talking about. You were once friends, sometimes even best friends, but through the years, things have changed, and you just aren't as close as you once were. Something isn't working between the two of you anymore and no matter how hard you try and make it work, things will just will never be the same.
|staying true to me, myself, and i|
So, naturally, instead of letting these types of friendships go, I try and grasp on. I feel like I'm on the edge of a cliff, only hanging on by my fingertips and I'm fighting my hardest to keep it from ending. Okay, so maybe "my hardest" is a bit of an exaggeration, but I have the feeling that I'm just not ready to walk away. In my inability to let go, I cause myself all sorts of unnecessary stress. I can't stop thinking about it, talking about it (thanks, Hubby, for always listening!), and the knot in my stomach just won't go away. I hate that I do this to myself. So, I've decided to let go. To stop forcing the relationship and just accepting the situation. It's not working anymore. I'm not going to get upset if an email or text doesn't get responded to. It is what it is. I'm letting go.